summer's in 3 days, i can do this

whenever i find cases of lost media, i think about the way they could be found. maybe through vhs recordings, contacting producers or dvds. but zlikavci's season 2 is something that is so unknown, i feel like it will never be found. even though there are not subtitles for the show anywhere, it still holds a special place in my heart, which is weird since i cant understand a single word the characters are saying. interesting, huh?

yesterday, while i was heading to class, i was writing on a notebook using a blue pen. the pen ended up exploding in my hand. i cleaned the ink off my hands, but theres still some between my middle finger and my pinky. i might as well wait until it disappears.

today was the first day of summer. i woke up and my hair's texture felt really weird, a shower seemed to fix it.

i just watched the formula 1 movie. its alright. also, the ink on my finger is almost disappearing.

a beautiful view.

nothing lasts forever

finally, the ink is almost 100% gone, it'll probably disappear tomorrow

need... to finish... space funeral 3.

i wonder how they know that ive slept for 12 hours today

its been a month since i made my last song. last night i tried to compose something, yet i felt weird doing it. it's not that the song sounds bad, it just feels weird doing it, it's hard to explain.

the ink is gone from my finger, it feels good, yet it feels sad. it's like saying goodbye to a kid you met in the playground and never seeing them again.

you know, time goes by so quickly. there's 20 more days of summer, but it feels like it started yesterday. i want to do so much stuff, but i also want to relax so badly. if i could choose a place to be right now, it would be yume nikki's snow world. can you imagine it, having your own igloo and getting to hibernate on it for the rest of eternity. sometimes you wake up to eat some food and drink some water, but that would be it, i would probably be a very happy person. it would be like that one moomins book, Moominland Midwinter, speaking of the moomins, i should read the rest of the books, maybe one day, maybe tomorrow, maybe next month, maybe next year, maybe in another life, who knows.

today i went to a recreation center, it was very empty, which was probably what made it feel weird, because usually these places are packed with people. there were spaces for people to organize barbecues, there were swimming pools, indoor sports courts, usual crap. there was this big building in the center with pictures of all the people that owned the place throughout the years. there were trophies in display that were taller than me (which is not really surprising), and they were trophies for very weird stuff like snooker championships. but anyways, today was a fun day.

i tried making homemade cheeseburgers, they tasted a little odd, probably because i forgot to put salt.

maybe i should stop playing all this weird crap

on my way home, a black cat stopped in front of me and rubbed themselves against my hoodie. they were very cute and let me pet them. they reminded me of my dog, which made me want to go home quicker.

today was a stressful yet happy day

ha!

vanilla coca cola whaaat o.o

what a lovely night to be alive

there was this one episode of aqua teen hunger force where frylock finds out that he has cancer so shake and meatwad try to cheer him up, and i remember not even finding the episode funny, i just felt bad for frylock, and there was this one scene that i found really weird and eerie where the doctor tells frylock he doesnt have cancer just for it to be all a dream and he looks even more fucked up when he wakes up. i always found this episode weird for some reason, its probably my peanut brain being stupid and emotional all of the sudden.

summer ends on the 28th. ive done so much, yet i feel like ive done so little. today i was walking my dog when i saw a tree stump. out of some kind of instinct, i kicked it. the wood was rotting, so the stump cracked open. i saw a large group of ants inside the tree stump, and i realized that i just destroyed their home and hours of hard work. it made me think how quick things can suddenly change, and how easy it is to break something without meaning to.

when i was very little, i remember playing this game on my father's ipad (it was an ipad 1) that was this very rustic hair salon, and the textures were wood, it was almost like a hair salon built inside a tree, and you had to cut a bear's hair. i never found that game again, and when the ipad was gone i lost all my hopes of finding it.

i am a snail. you are not. haha

the funny pizza land catacombs

for the last week, ive been putting some cat food and fish outside for the neighborhood cats to eat. they eat everything, but are still scared to come close to me.

hammetchi buys milk, hammetchi buys dinner, hammetchi buys lunch, hammetchi buys beef jerky, hammetchi buys ice cream, hammetchi buys a midnight snack, hammetchi buys pepsi... the world is full of possibilities, so is hammetchi. (?)

we were opening fortune cookies and listening to aphex twin

yukari

tomorrow is the last day of summer and i had this very weird dream where i had a math test to do but it was already night time and hadnt studied anything. scary.

i remember watching these a few years ago, its pretty nostalgic. i still remember exactly how the intro sounds lol

my favorite characters from ranfren are nana and ratmen 5, but dont tell anyone. it's our little secret. (what?)

this website feels like a virtual home to me, so if you're reading this right now, thank you for being interested in my life.

first day of going back to class. i brainstormed some ideas and drew concept art of a pontential hammetchi web comic. (ranfren and nekojiru got me really inspired... thank you and much love to the authors!) by the way, working on Hammetchi Buys Milk (RPG Maker) has felt a little forced somehow...? i cant really explain what im feeling, i guess i just lost a little bit of interest, and the engine is just a little bit limited to my ideas, just a little bit though... i wonder if people would be angry if i decided to work on a potential web comic for hammetchi and leave the game aside for a while.

i miss playing maplestory on my grandma's shitty computer, the game is so different nowadays that it doesnt even feel the same. i tried playing it last year and i was very confused. that game probably formed who i am today.

where even am i

a pop-up appeared in my desktop today, it was from a program called "weather zero", which i didnt even remember installing. i went to check it in task manager, and apparently ive had this in my computer since 2022... stupid sneaky virus.

i feel weird, might wake up sick tomorrow, that's how it always happens.

my neet senses were right, i was sick all day lol

grand father... fecal funny...

when i was 6 there was this boy in school who would always make fun of me, so one day i got angry and bit his arm. today i saw him, i don't think he recognized me (thank god). he's much taller than me, it felt weird... also, i got to eat brownies and drink guarana today, it was good...

i think that doing nothing and thinking quietly is what makes you yourself, so i am trying my best to be a better person and not get addicted to anything (like tiktok, i've never touched that crap before lol). i am looking for books to read. i was thinking about reading some sort of encyclopedia about something i like, but theyre expensive. today is a boring day, maybe i will take a nap.

when i have enough money i will hop on ebay and buy everything yukari tanizaki related without thinking twice.

yesterday i arrived home at 18:30, at 19:00 i took a 5 hour nap, woke up at 1 am, then i slept for 6 more hours... oh my god.

a gift i got today. when i was little i was a huge club penguin fan.

i spent all day writing and now i cant feel my hands.

this one image has been burnt in my mind for years now. i believe i first saw this image on a roblox obby in 2018, and ever since its been stuck in my head.

out of context phrases that ive said to myself this month

"it kinda works like a mirror to see if my hair is shitty during the day, but it serves no actual purpose because it always looks shitty"

"good times that will never come back because that boxcode is now long dead and buried in the backyard somewhere"

i wish yukari tanizaki was real

lol